Menthu ShadowDragon's Life
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Last 5 Entries: Dark Water - 2:34 a.m. , 2002-12-05 tired - 3:43 p.m. , 2002-11-21 Friends? - 10:53 p.m. , 2002-07-30 D&D Test - 11:33 a.m. , 2002-07-28 Smooth Seas - 12:07 a.m. , 2002-07-19
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Previous Entry - Next Entry 2002-07-30 - 10:53 p.m. : Friends? It’s hard for me to trust my friends now, so I don’t know what I can say here without someone using it against me. I am grounded for staying out pass my curfew. But it seems like my friends like to talk to my mom about me. Everyone says I’ve been acting differently which I don’t see. So my friends and brother feed my mom’s assumptions. Betrayal is what I feel. My friends and brother help bury me into a hole. I try to ignore it and say they were being harmless and they didn’t know it would hurt me but it is hard. Everyone thinks my best friend Jessica is changing me to the worst. But she has helped me. She helped me stop cutting myself, but I guess that doesn’t matter. When I finally find someone I truly like and love, everyone dislikes her: friends, brother, parents. Only one who thinks she is cool is my other best friend Randal. My parents basically said tonight that they would let me off being grounded if I’d stop hanging out with Jessica, my best friend. But fuck them, they can not pick my friends for me. They think that I can not make my own choices and that Jessica heavily influences me. And they think because of her I have started doing drugs more. I’m sorry, but weed is my drug of choice and I would still be doing it just as much this summer even if I didn’t hand out with her. I also plan on quitting once college starts anyway. And I still haven’t turned to heavier drugs and won’t even though you think otherwise. All my parents know or think they know is assumptions. No one knows Jessica like I do and I won’t stop hanging out with her for anyone. And my mom always wants me to bring my friends over to meet her but she can bet none of my friends I meet in college are coming to the house so if she doesn’t like them she can tell me not to hang out with them anymore. I’ll update more over this topic in soon-to-come entries, I was just gonna put them all in one huge entry, but I figured it’d be better like this. Previous Entry - Next Entry Others I Joined:
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